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Sunday, January 02, 2005

My Answer

It's 4am singapore time but i've just woken up. And i need to let it all out now because there's a chance i may die tomorrow and this may never be read.

i think for once i can let all the faithful see it the way i see it. The big picture. I'm not going to apologise anymore should i not update my site. I'm sick and tired, mainly sick and i don't expect people to empathise my situation and it's up to you lot to come and check back whenever you possibly can. Just realise that i write up whenever i feel that there is a need to. After all this is just about my thoughts and relevations.

To Tony, Esther, Woc, Yasmin, Jenn Yueh, SpaceGod and the others whom i can't recall conversing and arguing with me over this incident:

A lot of you have been saddened by the events no doubt that happened right after christmas which led to most of us having a muted new year celebration as well.
Some of you who managed to speak with me immediately after the first day of the disaster wondered what my pitch on this incident was about, and it stunned you lot that i wasn't the least bit bothered. Let me assure you all (though i shouldn't have to fucking type this out) that i had my aunty and uncle in india plus my dawgs down in thailand and i spend the entire sunday (since morning) trying to contact them till i was assured of their safety.
Then it seemed to the rest that i didn't give a fuck after that for the rest that died. Even to the extent of changing my msn online nick to suggest indifference to those who had tributes in theirs. (there's a reason why i am being draggy, please read on)
I was moved by the sincerity of the efforts by yasmin, esther and my brother who pushed for donations and forwarded it to those in their list. But it still seemed to a lot of you "god" haters like i was taking this whole thing as a joke.
Wrong people!!! ... absolutely wrong... i was incensed but it came to a point whereby i realised that i was ultimately helpless when i saw the attitudes of others around me get manipulated by the propaganda of the media and like any normal human being would...they responded or were rather manipulated into doing the right thing.

Don't get me wrong here, when someone is drowning, we shouldn't scold him for swimming when the current is too strong but rather we should save him first. And that was what all you people were doing. You were pooling in whatever resources you may have had and sent it, be it in the form of monetary donations or food or even clothing. Hey i donated as well y'know.. just for the record.. let it be known that i donated my money as well... But the whole thing sickened me,..the stench of it was overwhelming and a powerful reminder to me...how far all of us have to go before we can go about changing this place we live in for our future generations....

When the disaster first happened. I asked myself, with all the equipment and technological advances we've have, why wasn't there any warnings? in other instances there were warnings given out and the surrounding area was cleared.. i know that it doesn't happen all the time in the case of natural disasters because that would make us probably very advanced as a race. But remind yourselves that the place where the disaster took place was a hotspot for geological plate shifting. And scientists and other related professionals have and had been studying the area with great interest so it's more than just a chance that they already knew before hand... some of you who communicated with me know that this was my main question in mind...but you all didn't realise why..

Then on certain websites and small segments in the papers, there were reports confirming that this disaster could have been prevented... Now im not going to go into the details here about which country or which governments didnt want to inform because they didnt realise that it was that big of a deal.. but ask yourselves this.. this happened during the holiday season right... how come there weren't any bigshots getting killed at all? they don't holiday in asia all of a sudden?? when thailand and vietnam in recent years have been a haven for a lot of sick westerners who come looking for kids to fuck and make a clean getaway???? i could be paranoid here but seriously...
also with the help of tony emailing me regarding this issue, more and more details were revealed about this incident which leads me to believe that this disaster could have been prevented with a very high chance of success meaning that a lot of human lives could have been saved. A LOT OF KIDS LIVES mainly...

So now, i will get to the point...
I am really touched to know that a lot of ordinary people have stepped out to make the effort help all the disaster victims but look at the fucking big picture people..
red cross, unicef .. all these organisations work intertwined with the powers that be .. the very same powers consisting of people in veiled roles who choose not to sound the warning then blame it on the other parties for not sounding the alarm in the press, media or whatever else source of information that you may be reading the news from....point is ... ask yourself which human would put the lives of his fellow human at stake ...just for money...i highly doubt most people that i or you may know of would even consider it....but the powers that be didn't think so...
"always find ways and means to keep us on our toes and blind us from the truths"

here we are on a daily basis, like some sick guilty pleasure awaiting the latest reports regarding the disaster .. the numbers .. the figures .. death tolls...
and the propaganda machine which no doubt runs for the powers that be ...have the stranglehold over us by playing to us the issues which always tug at our heartstrings but rarely give us the truth we seek...

Look at the papers people, 2 months back ming na was found murdered after a nation was held hostage once more by the new of her. Then they poured out the stories of the citizens who did good and tried organising search groups for her as well bla bla bla bla bla ... no offence to ming na..god bless her soul for having to die young and innocent like that is never a way to go ...everyone seemed contented to know that they were among like minded singaporeans who cared and shared ...but we're dumb in that sense aren't we .... anyone knows what happened to the killer?? any details about him? any evidence that he killed her?? maybe just a small portion here and there in the papers barely readable ..something we'd all just flip the page and concentrate on the handphone ads instead ...
This is what i mean by having ourselves as a community being held hostage to matters which would undoubtly tug at our heartstrings ... they (the powers that be) know that we're suckers for such news and they drown us in it...manipulate us then to do "the right thing" by giving donations and such ...(IT IS NOT WRONG TO DO SO ..ANY PROPER HUMAN WILL EXTEND HIS/HER HAND TO HELP OUT) ..but the thing we all fail to see is how we are brainwashed into doing so without asking the real questions ...

1. why wasn't this disaster averted ...
2. why aren't there any heads hung out to take full responsibility for this disaster?
3. how come whenever something like this happens we always go the same path of recovery and aid to those who've suffered and never realise that it shouldn't happen again and must be prevented at all costs but it still does and we keep going on the same path of recovery and aid over and over again??

Ultimately it's going to keep happening over and over again, suprising how there aren't any "terrorist" attacks now thanks to the disaster as well... hmmm maybe the terrorists suddenly had a change of heart and helped out the victims .. then when everything seems to be right once more and then ... that will be the time the terrorists strike ...

We are all sheep...powerless to do nothing but follow the ways as set out by the powers that be...when the situation becomes calm, something else (terrorist bomb perhaps) will go off thus reminding us that we don't have a peace of mind and more importantly have our thoughts and actions manipulated by the great propaganda machine once more.

How many of you lost relatives, friends and people whom you cared about in this disaster...the anger that you hold right now ...

Now i want you to realise that this could have been prevented and a great deal of lives could have been saved ...the anger that you hold right now x2....

Now realise that this will happen again and again to and even greater number of loved ones and the propaganda machine will make it out to be that this was just another natural event in the way things are run and that there was no possible fucking way that you or me could have prevented this at all
.....the anger that i hold x a million times more than you would ever feel.........

ultimately be it a natural disaster that could have been prevented ...or a purposed disaster ...we'd still be the ones who suffer and move along like the sheep that we are... but the people who control these events ...bleed red ..same as we do....
yet they won't be suffering at all....they have biometric scanners, thumbprint identifications, tagging and a whole lot of other proposed measures to take up to ensure security and also make us live "freely" ....like a fucking lab rat in a controlled environment...... and these are the days you and i will have to live though ..or die in another "disaster" ...preplanned no doubt ...
now isn't that just fucking sad ...
don't talk to me about the tsunami disaster or how indifferent i am towards it ... i know you mean well and i know that you are concerned ....but i just wish that you realised that your own concern has already been preprogrammed....good night!

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